I have a huge feeling about me of just wanting to unexist anymore. My adult life has consisted of pretty much misfortune after misfortune. I cannot remember the last time I was genuinely happy honestly.
My words that I write have merely been to keep others from ending up like me; a lost cause with no effect, a hopeless, miserable piece-of-shit. I stay around for the sake of others, but otherwise, I would've already just left this world long ago.
Osaka
Didn't you say somewhere, something along the lines of "I've come too far in my story to leave through suicide", or something to that effect?
You should keep that sentiment, regardless of what you're going through. The Newgrounds community is here for you, and many will agree when I say that we enjoy reading your news posts and hearing your songs. This place would not be the same without you. Trust me when I say that these feelings you're having will pass. Even if they come again, just know that there's strangers on the internet that have your back.
Hang in there, Jukestar :)
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Jukestar
Very kind of you to say all this. Thank you.