"Toot burp belch faaart?" - Microsoft Sam

And I am so relieved. I can actually breathe at my job.

I appreciate your kind words and efforts during the hardest time in my life; it has helped me realize that maybe I have something to offer despite feeling so useless and unintelligent before.

When I was a kid, I didn't care about anything but shit like 100%-ing a video game, making music, going outside, or being around loved ones. I am going back to that. Fuck productivity, and fuck overachieving.

Sometimes one just needs to vent the bs anyway they can.

I have a huge feeling about me of just wanting to unexist anymore. My adult life has consisted of pretty much misfortune after misfortune. I cannot remember the last time I was genuinely happy honestly.

My words that I write have merely been to keep others from ending up like me; a lost cause with no effect, a hopeless, miserable piece-of-shit. I stay around for the sake of others, but otherwise, I would've already just left this world long ago.

therefore I uh... think.

but things are meant to fall apart just as much as they are meant to be fixed.

At one point in my life, I looked so much within for answers that I became entirely without. This led me to the conclusion that there never was a question to ask to begin with. The meaning of life to me is simply to live, but not just to live, not just to survive, but to thrive. And what I mean by this is not in the way of greed, but moreso in the way of need.

When nobody else believes in you, you just have to believe in your own self. Denial can have no effect on you if you realize that no matter how many times you are denied, you still exist and will always have existed. A man may be able to be destroyed, but a concept cannot. So allow yourself to only be what you truly wish to be, not what others project onto you. Be free in that regard.